bola oh bola

M.u menang lagi...
itulah yg sy boleh katakan...
sy yakin m.u fans sangat happy dengan kemenangan kelab tu
dan fans kelab bola sepak lain seperti liverpool(i still love LIVERPOOL),chelsea, arsenal, etc hnya mampu berpuas ati atau kecewa dengan pencapaian kelab pilihan masing2.
sama seperti sy yg ingin melihat liverpool menjulang liga piala inggeris(alamak,mcm salah!)

*nangis jap*

tapi,kemenangan m.u membuatkan sy berfikir....
kenapa mesti sy mengangkat tinggi liverpool tetapi untuk pasukan bola sepak malaysia pandang sebelah mata pun tidak...
kenapa mesti sy berbangga dengan kelab bola sepak yg ada dibarat sedangkan masih ada lagi pasukan bola sepak tempatan?
ada juga yg sanggup untuk pergi ke menonton sndri perlawanan bola sepak kelab kesayangan mereka.
mereka sanggup membeli jersi dan bangga menyarung jersi kelab bola sepak pilihan mereka tapi malu untuk menyarung jersi pasukan malaysia dan tidak berminat untuk menonton perlawanan bola sepak pasukan negara sendiri.

'apa yg ada dengan pasukan malaysia?'
'alaaa....setakat pasukan malaysia beraksi apalah sangat'
'main bola pun x pandai memanglah kalah'
'bosan la menonton perlawanan pasukan malaysia beraksi'

memang benar pasukan bola sepak negara semakin menurun prestasinya...
memang benar aksi yg mereka peragakan di pentas bola sepak tidak sehebat negara lain...
tidak dinafikan sudah beberapa tahun pasukan negara kita sering kali kecewa dengan setiap perlawanan...
dimana silapnya?
siapa yang harus dipersalahkan?

kenapa terlalu sedikit warga malaysia yang teruja apabila pasukan malaysia beraksi di padang?
adakah kerana sokongan rakyat terhadap pasukan negara kita menyebabkan mereka tidak bersemangat semasa berada di padang?
pasukan bola sepak negara semakin hilang serinya dan rakyat malaysia semakin menggemari kelab2 inggeris.

sebagai rakyat malaysia...
mari kita sama2 merungkai persoalan itu.

~beli barangan buatan malaysia
kempen ini pun kelihatan tidak berjaya. kaitan dengan bola sepak?
fikir sendiri~

penatnya...

minggu ini adalah minggu yg memenatkan..
banyak kerja yg perlu disiapkan
dan penat jawab soalan yg bertalu2 dari orang yg bermasalah.

adoiii....
i need a break.
diri sendiri tidak terurus
diri sendiri need a good time.
tapi semua tu terpaksa dikorbankan untuk mereka yg berasa mereka itu patut diberi perhatian lebih...

mengantuk...
penat...
letih...

semua ada...
minggu depan ada test pula.
nasib baik hari isnin cuti then kelas smpi hari khamis je.

tarik nafas dalam2 and hembus perlahan2...
sabar...
tinggal hanya beberapa mnggu sahaja lg...

be grateful

when i jump off the building....

I saw the loving couple in 10th floor is having a fight

I saw the usually tough and strong Peter in 9th floor is crying

eight floor, Ah Mei just found out her fiancee is sleeping with her bestfriend.

seventh floor, Dan taking her daily anti-depression medicine

sixth floor, jobless Heng still buys 7 newspaper to search for a job everyday

much respected Mr.Wong in fifth floor is trying his wife's undergrament.

fourth floor, Rose again fighting with her boyfriend old man in third floor everyday hoping someone would come by and pay him a visit

at the second floor, Lily still staring at the picture of her lost husband since half year ago

before I jumped off from the building, I thought I was the most unlucky person

now I just realized everyone has their own problems and worries.

after i had seen all these,

i found out, in fact I wasn't that bad at all.

the people i saw just now looking at me now.

I think, after they see me now...

they might feel they are not bad after all.

" Be grateful for whoever you are...

coz if u compare it to others,

u'll be suprised of their secret life "

have I told you lately...

this is a story of a girl....
feel wanna cry...

baru je balik dari dicussion dengan teja n jaya.
baliki bilik,masuk kunci then terhalang oleh satu benda.
kunci rum8 kat lobang kunci hinggakan menghalang aku nk buka pintu tu.
aku ketuk la.

aku tersangat GERAM....(*sambil urut dada*)
aku da x boleh berfikiran waras.
aku tak pernah tinggal kunci aku kat pintu tu coz aku tau kalo aku tinggalkan kunci tu still kat lobang kunci then you cant even use your key to open the door coz my key menghalang kunci ko dr mengunlock pintu tu....
tapi...
kenapa ko tak pernah buat hal yg sama?
kenapa msti setiap kali aku nk cucuk kunci aku kt lobang kunci tu, kunci ko akan menghalang niat aku nk masuk bilik?
suka sngt ke buka pintu untuk aku?
perlukah aku tegur banyak kali?
ko masih budak kecil ke?
benda tu pun ko x tau nak fikir ke?
ko xde otak ke nak fikir sendiri benda tu?
ko suka ke kalo ko rasa apa yg aku rasa skarang?

*nangis(dalam hati)*
alangkah baiknya kalau aku pindah bilik sem lepas.
aku da tak tahan da tinggal dalam bilik ni.

aku jahat ke sampai ko layan aku camni?
apa salah aku?
tegur la aku sama seperti aku tegur engkau...
mungkin aku x berubah sama seperti engkau...
maknanya, kita seri la....

tapi
aku masih sakit ati...
kenapa la kunci ko slalu menghalang kunci aku nak buka lock pintu tu?
aku da tegur....
x faham lagi ke?


~air mata mengalir....~

1,2,3,4 - aris ariwatan

Satu
Kasih nan abadi
Tiada tandingi
Dia yang satu

Dua
Sayang berpanjangan
Membawa ke syurga
Kasihnya ibu

TigaLapar dan dahaga
Rela berpayahan
Setianya ayah

Empat
Mudah kau ketemu
Berhati selalu
Beza antara
Kasih dan kekasih

Ibu
Ku ingat dahulu
Menyisir rambutku
Kemas selalu

Ayah
Menghantar ke sekolah
Bergunalah ilmu
Bila dewasa

Sayang
Dengar lagu ini
Untuk kau sandarkan
Buat pedoman

Jangan
Manis terus ditelan
Pahit terus dibuang
Itu bidalan
Harus kau renungkan

Andai
Kau beroleh bahagia
Ingat itu bukan
Untuk selamanya

Andai
Kau dalam sengsara
Ingat itu bukan
Untuk selamanya
Hidup ini sementara

~i've been searching for this song for ages...I'm so happy and so glad I got this song. the lyric is very straight forward.easy to understand and easy to let the song touch my soul.when i hear to this song,its remind me about all the bad things i've done to my parents.fuhhh!!!I'm tyring to be the best child now.I hope it's not too late to do so.

flashback

**yawning**

I just woke up and I checked my hp.

I'd got one message from abg long.

he told me that we have discussion at 12.

then...

I'd yawn again...

I sit in front of my laptop.

thinking my best childhood memory.

nothing pass by.

the cold frozen my mind.

quite glad at last the rain stop-by at penang.

at last, I can sleep without finding myself sweating.

each people have the same process

born...

cry...

smile...

crawl...

talk...

laugh...

walk...

and now I'm a big girl.

and still many people wish

"If only I can reverse the time"

"If only I can be back to be a children"

yeah...

I wish that, too.

and yet I'm still glad that I can still breath.

I can still see and watch the new life in this old world.

I can still smile and laugh and talk.

sometimes,

I dont have any single time to think about my past.

I dont have enough time to recall my best childhood memory.

I'm the youngest in my family.

I'd sleep with my mom and dad until I'm big enough to have my own room.

I hate that.

I dont want to sleep alone.

But, I have too.

I love to sleep with my mum.

I love to share the blanket with her.

and now,

I still do it.

hehehe...

my mum told me,

when I'm just a kid.

maybe around 4 or 5 years old.

my mum used to bring me to the town.

then, as a normal kid I'm hunting down for toys and more toys.

I'd never ask my mum to buy it for me.

but,when she hold my hand I knew it's time to go.

I want that toy but I dont dare to told my mum.

I will leave one of my slipper behind exactly in front of the toy I like.

when my mum realize that one of my slipper gone,

then she knew.

I want the toy.

finally, I got the toy.

It's barbie.

those old days, barbie is still an expensive stuff.

It's not barbie actually.

the one that I got is Kira, Barbie's friend.

there are so many memory that I have to recall.

yeah!

one of my best memory is when I performed the Pinakang dance in front of the audience.

It was on the Pesta Ka'amatan

It was a competition and we won it.

I'm 8 years old at that time.

but, I regretted I didn't have a chance to perform the dance at Hongkod

it's an honour to dance there.

it's okey.

I still can dance tho.

and I'd been rewarded as the best woman dancer at SMK Sikuati 2 in 2005.

I'm upper six at that time.

oh yeah..

we only got 2nd place but we bolot semua anugerah.

so many stories to share.

I'll continue it another day

~how I miss my homeland...~